cold day

Weather is so nice. So cool. I hate hot weather and so i am feeling happy today. First thing when i woke up: why the hell did i woke up before my alarm clock ring???? i woke up 1 hour before schedule. argh.. that means about slightly less than 5 hours of sleep....!!!!!

Damn mosquitoes.... plenty of them during rainy days. They target ME!!! Bite me like buffet like that ...no need money. Smack a few of them. They splurt blood...MY blood!!! gosh .... The most irritating pesk ever....MOSQUITOES

haha plagarised my friend's quiz into here :P

the last movie you watched?
The new Police story... nice man...

the last tv show you watched?
True Case Files. The 1959 pulau senkong incident.

the last song you heard?
dunno, listening to jazz radio...

the last thing you bought?
My dinner

the last place you went?
NUS arts canteen

the last food you ate?
Claypot rice

the last thing you heard from your parents?
bye bye....

the last thing you said to your parents?
cya

the last thing you said to one of your friends?
bye bye... duh..... no lah ..its lets play gunbound later....

the last thing you read?
my damn notes.......gurrrrr

Who was the last person you called
Clarence.. ask abt tut...no life right...

the last person who called you?
Dad

the last person you texted?
Sormui.

the last person who texted you?
sormui

the last person who said good night last night?
sormui

the last person who said I love you?
sormui.. if its anyone else i'm in trouble..haha :P

the last person who gave you a testimonial?
try not to judge others...

the last person who messaged you in[friendster]?
dunno???? long time ago liao ...

[MSN]?
Msning with sormui now.

the last person you hugged?
my boister...its ALIVE...muahahhaa

the last person you saw on tv?
steven lim!! he acting in the true case file as this secret society member.
This damn gross guy who pluck eye brows in orchard with his psycho grin... ultimate killer combi... he look like rapist la...

Do you believe that love is forever?
would like to believe so but u can never know..

get hurt by people easily?
yup, think i am quite sensitive at times and takes things a tat too personally.

believe that all people are generally good at heart?
there is a good and evil side to most of us...

sing in the shower?
nope. i live in hall leh... imagine if i sing in the shower....oh no...

like to splash puddles when it rains?
i hate to get wet by dirty puddle water.... u never know what kinda shit dissolved in them.

notice when people have pretty eyes?
yep.. eyes are the windows to one's soul, they betray yur emotions. If its beautiful, its shows how beautiful u are as a person.

tend not to worry, even when you know something bad is about to happen?
how to do that??? tell me.....haha i am a pathetic worrier....

like to drive with the windows down?
no... inhale smoke... smell from passing trash trucks.... spit from uncourteous drivers..... Jus keep the aircon in ...

Can you be anyone you want to be?
What u mean??? If i wanna be a millionaire then how?

Do mean people make you sad?
most of the time i get angry instead...

Does ice cream make you happy?
yeah baby!!!!!!

If you see a cute boy/girl walk down the street, do u tell him/her she's/he's cute?
siao boh? if girl, wanna get slapped itzit??? if guy, he is gay then think u also gay then how????

Have you ever cried at a movie?
i think so ...cannot remember... its just not me ba...

Is it cute when old people are holding hands?
yep... very touching... hope to be like that when i am old.

Are you a happy person?
generally yes

Is it okay to cut off Barbie's hair?
its ok ... but what for... it wun grow back u know?

Have you ever laughed so hard your stomach hurt?
yess..... esp to HAM

Are you slightly lazy?
hahahahahaahah .........................:P

If you have twenty dollars, are you rich?
20 dollars only??? siao bo ... never settle for less....

PE.........

Check out my floodable chatbox -------->
Its gone again... what is his problem man.
Shall put it up at a later date.

Just have PE today. Woah .. disasterous!!! And this time i really mean disaster. It was about 30% completed i think, spent half the time debugging. Doh!!!!!! Its the exam cockup symdrome again! And i am a regular victim of that. Shucks...

Ok shall not complain about that. I guessed many hours in front of the computer last week has tire my eyes out. I have blurred vision at times, esp when catching the bus. Was it the lack of sleep, or is it just me???

Reached home and relaxed until now. Haven't done a thing except my 2 powerpoint presentations for the coming Members night and Welcome tea. Opened my email and saw 2 responses...hmmmm not that bad. Hopefully i can recruit around 20 members.

Cold day... for the first time i felt damn cold after coming out from the shower. Burr.... Cold cold cold... but i like it this way. There is nothing i hate more than a hot and humid night. I love year end, the monsoon rain, the cool weather, the christmas lightups.... yeah .... :P

Memories are always beautiful.....

just finished studying and preparing notes for this coming PE. Tired, spent the whole day trying to understand stuff.

As i was taking time off i suddenly thought of how sometimes... things, events stay in our memories in a way that wonderful memories seemed all so perfect, while painful memories dun seemed that painful as we initially thought it was.

Every little thing that is happening in your life right now all adds up, slowly builds up and paints a picture in our minds. Maybe 20 years down the road we might look back and say... awww... uni life is not that bad... we had plenty of time to play and plenty of friends back then. Hmm, then when u look at the situation now, we are complaining that we are buried under tonnes of tutorials and assignments and we have no time to sleep or socialise. But...... is it really that bad???? Naww..... its a matter of perspective i guess... a perception and how u see life in a different light, focusing on the positive things instead of the negative ones and always complaining and whining that the entire world owes u a living. But of course, we all love to whine and complain at times, its always good to have someone to lend a listening ear...heh heh ....

Don't u notice that sometimes u might have wonderful memories of a place or a particular activity or event. Then u feel nostialgic and try to recreate that memory again by going back to that wonderful place again, tasting that delicious food again or going out and doing that wonderful activity again and then u somehow feel that the magic of it all has somehow been lost or that it doesn't seemed as perfect as before and we get disappointed. How come??? Is it because things are no longer that wonderful now??? or is it because simply that we know what to expect and that our expectations are higher now??? Is it because we always tend to remember the beautiful things instead????

Or somethings, something sad or horrid happens and u felt terrible, sad and depressed. This could go on for days, weeks even months. But somehow, u got over it after awhile and sometime later when u look back, things don't seemed as bad as they were. Maybe because by then u would have seen that there is really light at the end of the tunnel. But during the time, all hope seemed to be lost during the hour of darkness. How true is that??? Or do we subconsciously choose to forget the worst things so that we can tell ourselves to move on and not be haunted by past unpleasant memories???

Are memories always that beautiful, less painful??? After all, many years down the road, when life is coming to its end, when we don't see a way ahead of us anymore, when there is nothing much to look forward to ..... we will only have our memories to hold on to ....... beautiful ones of course....

It is the nature of dogs to live much shorter lives than ours just eight years, on average and it has always been my belief that to love and own a dog is to understand and accept that along with loyalty, love, and devotion come the ever-present specters of grief and loss. This is as integral a part of the dog-loving experience as going for walks. To love dogs is to know death and to accept that there's never a time we are more morally obliged to speak for them than when they face the end of their lives.

I asked God....

I asked God if he could stay.
He said that he must leave.

I asked God if he could stay a little longer.
He said he already did.

I asked God if i could have him back,
He said that his time is up.

I asked God where would he go?
He said that he would go to heaven.

I asked God if he will be peaceful.
He said definitely.

I asked God if he was happy with us.
He said that he will miss us.

I told God that I would miss him too.
God wept and said

Don't worry i will bless and take care of him....

Sense of accomplishment

Just finished doing my programming lab... look its 2am...so can say finish quite early already. :P slogged for the whole weekend, had only about 4-5 hours of sleep per day, and other than eating or shitting i am infront of my notebook, either coding or stoning away..... most of the time feeling confused or damn fustrated cause of logical or syntax errors. Anyway, just submitted and got an A. So i am feeling an overwhelming sense of acomplishment here.

Hmm, haven't blog for so long. Been very busy lately mostly with sch work and Rotaract club. Had hardly anytime for myself!!!! Missed playing my guitar, this time i leave it at home instead of bringing it to hall. Won't have much time to play anyway.

sigh..... read the news and realised that christopher reeve's has passed away last week. He is such a strong person be have accepted his paralysis and lived on after his accident with such determination. Its a pity that he will never have the chance to walk again, just like he promised when he was alive: to stand on his feet one day. Have peace......

An incident over the weekend or rather on friday made me feel kinda sad and very uneasy. So i was rather in low spirits. Shall elaborate on it sometime later..... Now i am reallie afraid what it would be should the day come. Will i be able to accept it??? Will i be able to come to terms with the fact?? I don't know.... time is running out.... hai.............. :(

Movie...

Called up sormui on sunday and ask her out for a movie on wed. Been so long sinced we last went out hahaa....... And been so long since i last watched a movie ah .... no life in NUS :P
Now thinking of what movie to watch ....... comedy??? horror???? Action??? Romance?????
Need to look at movie previews liao....

Looking forward to this wed.. :P

Sundays....

Its Sunday again, and i am feeling lazy..... *yawn*
Wanted to wake up at 8 initially, needed to do some work. But in the end? woke up at 11 after like snoozing my alarm clock for a few times... a good many times in fact. Sunday is the only day where i can sleep till late. Not that i have alot of time to do that though.... :(

The home director still haven't called me back!!! Darn..... called up and reminded his secretary so many times liao. What the hell is he up to for god's sake. Emailed another home in the meantime. Think all comserv directors are either damn busy or else damn lazy.... so much for community service... :P

Woke up at 11 and began webcasting...until now...... Had to catched up on what i had missed on ponning lectures. I dun go because i dun understand/ cannot catch up! Or some ppl there are damn inconsiderate....talk so much ... talk so loudly.... complain so much that they dun understand.... why the hell can't they jus fucking shut up!!!! then listen.... sit there and quietly listen then can understand liao wat... make so much noise... made me lost in the lecture too.

Listening to an unplugged version of "Patience" by the Guns and Roses. This version is damn nice man.... The unedited, jus pure unplugged version with the acoustic guitar. Funny ah .... this song is abt patience.... and for those who know me will know that i have almost zero patience...haha. :P

When I'm 64 - The Beatles

When I'm 64 - The Beatles

When I get older losing my hair many years from now
Will you still be sending me a valentine,Birthday greetings, bottle of wine?
If I'd been out til quarter to three would you lock the door?
Will you still need me, will you still feed me, when I'm sixty-four?
Oh, you'll be older too - AhAnd if you say the word, I could stay with you
I could be handy mending a fuse when your lights have gone
You can knit a sweater by the fireside,Sunday mornings, go for a rideDoing the garden,
digging the weeds, who could ask for more?
Will you still need me, will you still feed me, when I'm sixty-four?
Every summer we could rent a cottage in the Isle of White,If it's not too dearWe shall skrimp and save, grandchildren at your knees,Vera, Chuck, and Dave
Send me a postcard, drop me a line stating point of view
Indicate precisely what you mean to say,
Yours sincerely, wasting away
Give me an answer, fill in a form, mine forevermore
Will you still need me, will you still feed me, when I'm sixty-four?

Mid Autumn Festival

Had a mini Mid Autumn celebration with sormui yesterday. Went to the little garden downstairs of her place. Her mom had this impression that we are very hungry and going for a picnic and so packed lotsa food for us ah ...haha...... There is the mooncake, the big fruit ( start with P one ), and packet drinks. Felt very bad ah .... i never even bought anything lo.... should have bought mooncakes for her mom ah ....stupid me.......
We walked around the estate trying to find an empty spot to settle down but it seemed that it was crowded with kids everywhere. Sormui commented on my very poor and lousy sense of direction...but nevermind!!!! Ha ha..... in the end we landed at the little garden at the multi story carpark. Then realised that the lighter is spoilt, so went upstairs to get it again....aiyo........
After finally getting the lighter and some matchsticks, finally go abt the busy task of lighting candles and playing with sparklers..... hmmmm..... when is the last time i did that??? :P seems very long ago already. We then got this idea to light a row of candles.... after doing so sormui was so excited, saying yeah ..ok liao ok liao. haha so funny...... and of coz, who can forget the cool doraemon lantern that we have.
I can remember last time when i was in primary school. During the Festival, i would be burning everything that i can lay my hands on..... newspapers, candles, leaves, and of coz....once .... my neighbour's broom. haha .... he wasn't very pleased with me for doing that. Sormui's mother say that we, 2 uni students, are playing with candles and lanterns downstairs, making an excuse to act like kids with romance being a coverup. haha....... maybe so.... :P

But its fun mah .......

The line of candles that we lighted up :)

Us and that Doraemon Lantern :)