The feeling of dread

Monday blues on a Sunday evening? This is something that I had not have for some time now. Its kinda strange. I am dreading something, but WHAT?

It must be the thought of having to spend another day at CICFAR (read SICKfar) lab again tomorrow.

The thought of having to drag myself out of bed at 8am.

The thought of having to plan my tasks and experiments and trying to be as productive as possible again.

The thought of sitting through lectures listening to things that i have no interest for.

The thought of needing to go through corporate pamphlets and websites to look for suitable jobs.

The thought of needing to submit my CV online with no confirmation of even being eligible for an interview.

The thought of the sick, lonely, boring and mind-numbing life of an engineer that awaits me in the next few months.

Sometimes you want to be alone, yet sometimes you can feel alone in a crowd...

melancholy

to be disappointed or to disappoint?
lost hope or false hope?
the delivered or the deliverer?
to die or to suffer?
the convicted innocent or the guilty escapist?
the outcast or the lonely jester?
to cry or to hold back tears?
the condemned or the executor?
the hospice or the mortuary?
the alone or the lonely?
the ill-fated or the guilty?
the receiver or the deliver of sad news?
the pain or the wait?

Downtown

are you feeling sian/sad? pox this is for you.

When your alone and life is making you lonely you can always go,
downtown.
When you've got worries all the noise and the hurry seems to help I know,
downtown

Just listen to music of the traffic in the city.
Linger on the side walk where the neon lights are pretty.
How can you lose?

The lights are much brighter there you can forget all your troubles forget all your cares so go downtown
things will be great when your downtown no finer place for sure downtown everythings waiting for you

Don't hang around and let your problems sorround you there are movie shows,
downtown.
Maybe you know some little places to go to where they never close,
downtown.
Just listen to the rythm of the gentle Basa Nova ,
you'll be dancing with 'em too before the night is over.
Happy again.

The lights are much brighter there you can forget all your troubles forget all your cares and go downtown where all the lights are bright downtown waiting for you tonight downtown you're going to be alright now.

And you might find somebody kind to help and understand you.
Someone who is just like you and needs a gentle hand to
guide them along.
So maybe I'll see you there,
we can forget all our troubles forget all our cares.

So go downtown things will be great when your downtown don't wait a minute for downtown everythings waiting for you.

Last night I had a dream about you
In this dream I'm dancing right beside you
And it looked like everyone was having fun
the kind of feeling I've waited so long

Don't stop come a little closer
As we jam the rythm gets stronger
There's nothing wrong with just a little little fun
We were dancing all night long

The time is right to put my arms around you
You're feeling right
You wrap your arms around too
But suddenly I feel the shining sun
Before I knew it this dream was all gone

Ooh I don't know what to do
About this dream and you
I wish this dream comes true